It was the first time that she was so upfront about it…
I’d been trying to come up with excuses so that I wouldn’t need to go out with my relatives later in the day and can go to church. As a result of this decision, I napped and awoke in the middle of the night to do my work so that I can go church without additional burdens and guilt.
She saw through me and asked gently, “Are you doing this so that you can go to church later?” I came truthful, and said yes. And she said, “Don’t go to church lah…”
It was a suggestion that came from a deep concern for her daughter’s health and strength.. and it is so tempting for me to just give up because of my fatigue.. but no! For the eternal treasures that await me in Heaven and for the eternal joy of seeing my loved ones saved, I choose to persevere.
Everytime I choose to persevere, I feel stronger. As if You are telling me, ‘My dear child, I am with you. And with Me, you’ll be taken care of. Do not worry :)’
With You, all things are possible. I can conquer my carnal self-defeating nature!
